Any person who would take a glance at my past "love Life" would probably think I'm insane, or at least marginally screwed up from past experiences. Problem is, all the troubles I had in the past, all the repetitive pain...doesn't seem to deaden the other feelings I had, not enough anyways. Even now I find myself at times lingering upon what once was, years later. Maybe it's the whole first love thing holding on or maybe it's just how I am, once I commit my feelings to someone they don't change, then again, perhaps I give myself too much credit.
I think it's time for another relationship because I'm curious. I think if I were to feel genuinely for someone like that again, maybe the first one won't hold such a grip on me. Might even feel normal for once, so that I dont stay so attached like this. Part of me is anyways.
Careful what you listen to folks, music has a way of bringing a lot out of you. I've many an album now that feel tainted whenever I hear them. A shame really.